Ever been in a funk? I mean a serious "I don't want to see anybody" funk? Where you just want to stay home, nest a little, and have a some alone time? I've been there the last couple of weeks. This happens every now and again, and it stinks. I'm such an extrovert that it's absolutely awful when I get this feeling...but, it's passed now.
I know what brought it on - ever since my birthday, all I could think about was that the 29th would have been Daddy's 65th birthday. He passed in 2001, and while the pain gets different as time passes, there are those moments I just need to waller in the fact that he died when I was so young (I had just turned 22 and my sister was 19). Enough about that, or I'll just tear up again...
Hmm...so otherwise, what's been going on? This has been an INSANE week....just see for yourself!
Monday
Work - Jr. League Meeting - and feeling the *effects* of being on high dose antibiotics the last 10 days (no icky details).
Tuesday
Work - then I got to see my sister! She was in town for the state FFA Livestock Judging contest. And, her team did VERY well. She's a Vo-Ag teacher way too many miles away. It is so cool to watch her with the kids (and hear them call her Mrs. LastName still freaks me out).
Also had the opportunity to see friends from college who are now teachers too. It was great! Except, I totally didn't think about going out there when I was getting ready, so I was wearing a skirt and flats (in a livestock barn!) Yeah, felt a little out of place on that one.
Wednesday
It was my provisional project night with Jr. League. And my headlight was out. And my drivers licence expired. So - after work, fixed the headlight (thanks to a guy at the office for showing me how to do it!), go the popcorn machine I was in charge of, and then sat at the DMV for an hour. One hour and seventeen minutes to be exact. I was about to walk out the door when they called my number. I didn't want to be late for the JL thing! So, then it was off to the JL event. The popcorn machine (and the only thing I was responsible for) WOULD NOT WORK! Even worse, the kids saw the machine and kept asking for popcorn. GAH! Only me (but I know it wasn't my fault the machine didn't work). The event was great and everyone looked so happy. Small WW victory: instead of grabbing some fast food after the event, came home and ate veggies left over from the night before. I wasn't really all that hungry, so I didn't waste a ton of points (that I didn't really have) and ate something feeling.
Thursday
How on earth can I already have something today you may ask? Well....took the popcorn machine back first thing (yay for a full refund). And, I have a funeral to attend today for one of the first donors I worked with when I started my career in '02. It's later this afternoon and I have some business at the bank that HAS to be done today (yay CD maturing); so I'm waiting on the bank to open before going into the office.
I dread the funeral -- with all I've been dealing with emotionally around Daddy, it's going to be extra tough. It's one of those things that would be difficult no matter what. I have grown to love and sincerely care for this couple.
And, tonight is WW night (pending I can make it with the funeral -- visitation is after the service and it's on the other end of town from my meeting).
Then, it's dinner with the In-Laws to handle a little business. We're finalizing the purchase of the lil' trailer we have at the beach (on the lots next to the in-laws). We've *had* it for awhile now (and it's been gutted and cleaned and looks amazing!) but are making the final *payment* (it was broken into pieces to help the seller with tax liabilities). *YAY* for weekends at the beach this summer!
*shew* I think that's all....it's been a whirlwind the last few days.
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Thursday, April 2, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Jr. League Update
Let me start out by giving a big thank you to Tara, Robin, Adnan, Erin, Emily, and Daisy -- y'all make for a wonderful blog'port (my funny take on support) group! And yeah, last week was awful beyond anything I've ever encountered. Not even being the *chunky* girl in high school and all that pickin' prepared me for that group of hateful hussies.
BUT -- tonight, those girls are out of my life (at least en mass, I'm sure I'll encounter them again.) I have to miss a Provisional meeting on Monday since our flight back isn't until early evening. And I'm sure I'll be pooped and will need to prep for my *Monday* on Tuesday in the office. So, I went to one of the General Membership meetings tonight to make up the absence. I've missed one activity so far, and we're allowed to miss 2 -- but I figured I'd probably need a *get out of jail free* card incase something was to pop up again.
Y'all...I don't lie. They were dressed in everything from yoga pants & t-shirts to jeans and tops to scrubs to completely dolled out. I don't think I ever need to worry again about what to wear to a JL event. Seriously, with about 300 ladies there, I saw just about everythig possible.
I bumped into my friend R (friend before JL -- she married one of my best guy friends) and it was great to be able to catch up with her and visit. We sat together and shared chuckles. She's a very serious kind of person, and I love her to pieces, and we got to cut up just a little....it was great. She's definatly one of the grounding forces in my life. She has a way of making everything not seem quite so bad. Everyone needs a friend like R.
Also got to visit with two Actives that I know -- it was great to get to catch up with J and J! Both have small kids (one boy, one a girl) who are just the most darling little things!!! Facebook keeps me updated on how they are growing and just how precious they are!
Then...it fell apart. We sat at rounds of 8 for the meeting. No assigned seating. Who sits at the table diagonal from me (I must add, in the direct way of the podium) but the Queen of the Hateful Huzzies. Just the sight of her made my heart feel bitter. I don't like feeling bitter. At all. God didn't design me to be bitter. So, I prayed for her (and ask that if you are reading this that you would say a prayer for her too; her initals are AC and Jesus knows who she is.)
I know that God's grace has wonderful and healing powers. I felt so much better after praying for her (there was a bunch of stuff that I didn't know what they were talking about, so I tuned out the meeting.) I can now look at her without getting upset. God is AWESOME -- I hope you know exactly what I'm talking about.
Anywhos...after the meeting, I ran into the girls from my Color Group....for the record, they are beyond wonderful. I love them! Our MDC co-chair for our group was there and asked if my Spring Project group was going any better. I teared up immediatly and told her about how I was treated last week. Long story short (ha ha ha...) I'm to email her tomorrow and let her know what project I want (I'm thinking of going for a Career Fair that several girls I know are doing) and that she'd talk to the BIG CHEESES of the Provisionals (I forget their official titles) and explain that I need to change groups due to a conflict. She could've told me to put on my big girl panties and deal with it -- but she was very sympathetic and understanding and is helping me out. So *yay* K....you're awesome!
So...even if a few uppity things don't like Bumpkin's in the Jr. League...I do have a support group and have met wonderful ladies. And, like the speaker told us tonight -- we're there because we want to serve our communities not because it's social. The social part is just an added benefit. And, I look forward to getting involved in a project that my heart isn't hardened against.
BUT -- tonight, those girls are out of my life (at least en mass, I'm sure I'll encounter them again.) I have to miss a Provisional meeting on Monday since our flight back isn't until early evening. And I'm sure I'll be pooped and will need to prep for my *Monday* on Tuesday in the office. So, I went to one of the General Membership meetings tonight to make up the absence. I've missed one activity so far, and we're allowed to miss 2 -- but I figured I'd probably need a *get out of jail free* card incase something was to pop up again.
Y'all...I don't lie. They were dressed in everything from yoga pants & t-shirts to jeans and tops to scrubs to completely dolled out. I don't think I ever need to worry again about what to wear to a JL event. Seriously, with about 300 ladies there, I saw just about everythig possible.
I bumped into my friend R (friend before JL -- she married one of my best guy friends) and it was great to be able to catch up with her and visit. We sat together and shared chuckles. She's a very serious kind of person, and I love her to pieces, and we got to cut up just a little....it was great. She's definatly one of the grounding forces in my life. She has a way of making everything not seem quite so bad. Everyone needs a friend like R.
Also got to visit with two Actives that I know -- it was great to get to catch up with J and J! Both have small kids (one boy, one a girl) who are just the most darling little things!!! Facebook keeps me updated on how they are growing and just how precious they are!
Then...it fell apart. We sat at rounds of 8 for the meeting. No assigned seating. Who sits at the table diagonal from me (I must add, in the direct way of the podium) but the Queen of the Hateful Huzzies. Just the sight of her made my heart feel bitter. I don't like feeling bitter. At all. God didn't design me to be bitter. So, I prayed for her (and ask that if you are reading this that you would say a prayer for her too; her initals are AC and Jesus knows who she is.)
I know that God's grace has wonderful and healing powers. I felt so much better after praying for her (there was a bunch of stuff that I didn't know what they were talking about, so I tuned out the meeting.) I can now look at her without getting upset. God is AWESOME -- I hope you know exactly what I'm talking about.
Anywhos...after the meeting, I ran into the girls from my Color Group....for the record, they are beyond wonderful. I love them! Our MDC co-chair for our group was there and asked if my Spring Project group was going any better. I teared up immediatly and told her about how I was treated last week. Long story short (ha ha ha...) I'm to email her tomorrow and let her know what project I want (I'm thinking of going for a Career Fair that several girls I know are doing) and that she'd talk to the BIG CHEESES of the Provisionals (I forget their official titles) and explain that I need to change groups due to a conflict. She could've told me to put on my big girl panties and deal with it -- but she was very sympathetic and understanding and is helping me out. So *yay* K....you're awesome!
So...even if a few uppity things don't like Bumpkin's in the Jr. League...I do have a support group and have met wonderful ladies. And, like the speaker told us tonight -- we're there because we want to serve our communities not because it's social. The social part is just an added benefit. And, I look forward to getting involved in a project that my heart isn't hardened against.
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Maybe they don't like Bumpkins in the Jr. League...
Hey Y'all!
Thursday night was super busy (and yesterday I crashed when I got in from work...one of *those* awful days!) between WW, helping Hubby K decorate his office, and the Junior League Spring Project meeting.
WW report: Down 0.4 lbs (I didn't track most of the week...tells me the importance of that!)
Hubby-K: He received a sweet promotion into management before Christmas (which is what he's always wanted to do). So, a few weeks ago he moved into his new office. To decorate, he's taken most of the Belltower pictures (like 6 of them-- we're obsessed), the Farm Bureau poster w/ Mr & Mrs. Wuf (the cutest couple in college sports!), the monster game-day picture from Carter Finley (which, we're in!), and several other NC State pictures. He has tons of wall space in the new office, so he did this super cool gallery wall. So, not only is he surrounded by his favorite things at work, between the pictures and other assorted NC State stuff he took, it's SLOWLY cleaning out the downstairs room that's to become our bedroom.
Junior League: So, I'm saving the best for last. Really. This is classic. My Color group is GREAT and full of wonderful, NORMAL ladies. They are even downright nice and lovely! I'm still trying to get my head around all that transpired Thursday night. I don't always do good meeting new people, it takes me a bit to warm up and start talking...until then, I'm just all smiles. So, I don't *think* I look mean, or hateful or anything. I was so worried about this meeting I went by SteinMart to get a new pair of jeans (a pair of Sevens - in a size 14....this makes me happy!!) and a haircut (at one of those $17 for a cut & wash places -- first time in 3 years that my boy Drew hasn't done my hair. Boy Drew may get his own post later. He's LOVE).
So, I sport my new jeans, a white button up shirt, a cute pair of brown flats and a green necklace....even put on makeup, which I seldom do (because I have no idea how to do it - what looks good, etc. Some things you miss when you're raised without a Momma). The girls at WW told me how good I looked, Hubby K even commented on how nice I looked. So, that helped my confidence a LOT, but in no ways prepared me for THIS!
So, the meeting is at a girl's house in one of the upperscale Inside the Beltline (read here - the old money houses). She lives with her parents, the email said park on the street. So I park O'Malley, my 2000 Chevy Malibu, and there are two girls in front of me talking and walking up the hill to the house.
Me: Hey Y'all!
Them: NOTHING (hmmm...interesting. Maybe they didn't hear me.)
So we get up to the house. Very nice one-story brick, probably around 3,000 square feet. The other girls just went on in. Me, being not so sure about all this, rings the doorbell. Someone waves for me to come in.
So, I walk into the living room. There were like 15 girls there, all talking in little cliques.
Me: Hey Y'all!
Them: Nothing
Then, the girl who's in charge of the project (we had nametags, and her name is one of those one of a kind names), walks over towards where I'm sitting. I look at her and smile. She turns and walks past me to introduce herself to this other girl who missed the first meeting. What. The. World.
By this point, I'm getting pretty ill, and I'm super uncomfortable, and my bitter heart about the whole project has returned. The meeting was torture. Hated it. Loathed it. I may not be perfect, but I am a nice person. I may be on the chunky side, but I have manners. The only ones there who seemed happy to see me there or even were welecoming were the 2 pugs, a yellow lab, and a boxer who stayed near me the whole evening (until they were bannished outside again).
How awful is that? Only the dogs were nice to me? From listening to conversations, I know a lot of the girls already knew each other and had for years. But that is no excuse to be rude.
Back home, people welcome everyone. We're talking about throwing up fingers when you're driving around crazy insane curves (if you've ever seen it -- you know the wave I'm talking about). In my entire life, I've never felt so unwanted in a group. Not even the awkward teenage years where I felt like an outcast...even then, people would TALK to me. And - since I'd never met these ladies, I know there was no way I could've done something to make them mad.
If we had not had one of the random Color Group email chains Thursday night & all day yesterday, I'd probably just quit. I'm not a quiter...I tough things out. The girls in my Color group have taught me that not EVERYONE in the Junior League is hateful and stuck up. I also know about 20-30 actives who are just as nice as can be.
Wrapping things up --- April 4th and the Spring Project event itself can not come soon enough. I'll tough it out until then. AND...if after the next meeting no one talks to me -- I refuse to drive home in tears again wondering what is wrong with *me*.....there is nothing *wrong* with me, it's them....oh well, the puppies liked me!
Thursday night was super busy (and yesterday I crashed when I got in from work...one of *those* awful days!) between WW, helping Hubby K decorate his office, and the Junior League Spring Project meeting.
WW report: Down 0.4 lbs (I didn't track most of the week...tells me the importance of that!)
Hubby-K: He received a sweet promotion into management before Christmas (which is what he's always wanted to do). So, a few weeks ago he moved into his new office. To decorate, he's taken most of the Belltower pictures (like 6 of them-- we're obsessed), the Farm Bureau poster w/ Mr & Mrs. Wuf (the cutest couple in college sports!), the monster game-day picture from Carter Finley (which, we're in!), and several other NC State pictures. He has tons of wall space in the new office, so he did this super cool gallery wall. So, not only is he surrounded by his favorite things at work, between the pictures and other assorted NC State stuff he took, it's SLOWLY cleaning out the downstairs room that's to become our bedroom.
Junior League: So, I'm saving the best for last. Really. This is classic. My Color group is GREAT and full of wonderful, NORMAL ladies. They are even downright nice and lovely! I'm still trying to get my head around all that transpired Thursday night. I don't always do good meeting new people, it takes me a bit to warm up and start talking...until then, I'm just all smiles. So, I don't *think* I look mean, or hateful or anything. I was so worried about this meeting I went by SteinMart to get a new pair of jeans (a pair of Sevens - in a size 14....this makes me happy!!) and a haircut (at one of those $17 for a cut & wash places -- first time in 3 years that my boy Drew hasn't done my hair. Boy Drew may get his own post later. He's LOVE).
So, I sport my new jeans, a white button up shirt, a cute pair of brown flats and a green necklace....even put on makeup, which I seldom do (because I have no idea how to do it - what looks good, etc. Some things you miss when you're raised without a Momma). The girls at WW told me how good I looked, Hubby K even commented on how nice I looked. So, that helped my confidence a LOT, but in no ways prepared me for THIS!
So, the meeting is at a girl's house in one of the upperscale Inside the Beltline (read here - the old money houses). She lives with her parents, the email said park on the street. So I park O'Malley, my 2000 Chevy Malibu, and there are two girls in front of me talking and walking up the hill to the house.
Me: Hey Y'all!
Them: NOTHING (hmmm...interesting. Maybe they didn't hear me.)
So we get up to the house. Very nice one-story brick, probably around 3,000 square feet. The other girls just went on in. Me, being not so sure about all this, rings the doorbell. Someone waves for me to come in.
So, I walk into the living room. There were like 15 girls there, all talking in little cliques.
Me: Hey Y'all!
Them: Nothing
Then, the girl who's in charge of the project (we had nametags, and her name is one of those one of a kind names), walks over towards where I'm sitting. I look at her and smile. She turns and walks past me to introduce herself to this other girl who missed the first meeting. What. The. World.
By this point, I'm getting pretty ill, and I'm super uncomfortable, and my bitter heart about the whole project has returned. The meeting was torture. Hated it. Loathed it. I may not be perfect, but I am a nice person. I may be on the chunky side, but I have manners. The only ones there who seemed happy to see me there or even were welecoming were the 2 pugs, a yellow lab, and a boxer who stayed near me the whole evening (until they were bannished outside again).
How awful is that? Only the dogs were nice to me? From listening to conversations, I know a lot of the girls already knew each other and had for years. But that is no excuse to be rude.
Back home, people welcome everyone. We're talking about throwing up fingers when you're driving around crazy insane curves (if you've ever seen it -- you know the wave I'm talking about). In my entire life, I've never felt so unwanted in a group. Not even the awkward teenage years where I felt like an outcast...even then, people would TALK to me. And - since I'd never met these ladies, I know there was no way I could've done something to make them mad.
If we had not had one of the random Color Group email chains Thursday night & all day yesterday, I'd probably just quit. I'm not a quiter...I tough things out. The girls in my Color group have taught me that not EVERYONE in the Junior League is hateful and stuck up. I also know about 20-30 actives who are just as nice as can be.
Wrapping things up --- April 4th and the Spring Project event itself can not come soon enough. I'll tough it out until then. AND...if after the next meeting no one talks to me -- I refuse to drive home in tears again wondering what is wrong with *me*.....there is nothing *wrong* with me, it's them....oh well, the puppies liked me!
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Jr. League RANT
I need to start out saying, I've absolutely loved my first half of the Provisional process for JL. It has been so great getting to know the ladies in my color group -- I honestly look forward to the gatherings (required or not!)
So this is why I'm ill...
As a Provisional, we have a Spring Project that we are assisting with. I chose to work with a carnival at a Boys & Girls Club at the end of the spring. The kids will be rewarded for their hard efforts during the school year. I work for another youth organization, but am really excited about the project....may I should say was excited...
So what happened?
Checking email this morning (yes, I was a bad Pack fan and went to bed before the game was over), there was a note sent last night reminding us of a meeting tonight. Reminding implies that you've heard about it before -- right? Apparently NOT with these project Co-Chairs. First time I've heard ANYTHING about a meeting or about the project at all since I signed up several weeks ago.
So, since I'm still recovering, I sent a nice email saying that I wouldn't be able to come tonight and asking if there was an earlier email sent that I missed and that I'll be at future meetings and do whatever is asked to help the project.
Do I get a nice, sweet email back? HECK NO! I get a broadcast email (2 hours before the meeting) saying the following:
I have heard from some of you about your inability to make tonight's meeting. You will need to be in contact with (won't blast her b/c I didn't contact her) or myself (AKA ROYAL HUSSY) to discuss what you have missed and learn about your placement on the project. Please make sure you are able to attend meetings in the future as they are very important.
Maybe if she'd let us know in advance that there was a meeting more of us would have been there......I'm mad. This is the stereotypical behavior that I was leery of joining JL for. However, I must say this is the first attitude like this that I've encountered.
I wonder if Royal Hussy knows she's coming across this way?
Now, I'm so not excited about this project...
So this is why I'm ill...
As a Provisional, we have a Spring Project that we are assisting with. I chose to work with a carnival at a Boys & Girls Club at the end of the spring. The kids will be rewarded for their hard efforts during the school year. I work for another youth organization, but am really excited about the project....may I should say was excited...
So what happened?
Checking email this morning (yes, I was a bad Pack fan and went to bed before the game was over), there was a note sent last night reminding us of a meeting tonight. Reminding implies that you've heard about it before -- right? Apparently NOT with these project Co-Chairs. First time I've heard ANYTHING about a meeting or about the project at all since I signed up several weeks ago.
So, since I'm still recovering, I sent a nice email saying that I wouldn't be able to come tonight and asking if there was an earlier email sent that I missed and that I'll be at future meetings and do whatever is asked to help the project.
Do I get a nice, sweet email back? HECK NO! I get a broadcast email (2 hours before the meeting) saying the following:
I have heard from some of you about your inability to make tonight's meeting. You will need to be in contact with (won't blast her b/c I didn't contact her) or myself (AKA ROYAL HUSSY) to discuss what you have missed and learn about your placement on the project. Please make sure you are able to attend meetings in the future as they are very important.
Maybe if she'd let us know in advance that there was a meeting more of us would have been there......I'm mad. This is the stereotypical behavior that I was leery of joining JL for. However, I must say this is the first attitude like this that I've encountered.
I wonder if Royal Hussy knows she's coming across this way?
Now, I'm so not excited about this project...
Monday, August 18, 2008
Today - Monday
I'll preface this by saying -- I know my life is relatively dull & boring. But it's the life I'm living. And, I also know that it's these zillion ordinary experiences that make my life extraordinary! While you may read this blog, know that it's primary intent is for me archiving my life -- nothing more, nothing less.
Ordinary --
got up, went to work, had meeting.
Extraordinary --
after work went to TJ Maxx to buy a new rug for the kitchen that I'd talked myself into buying. Drooled over pocketbooks (especially a red Dooney bag) for like 15 minutes. Picked up a bottle of perfume I'd been wanting. Went to rugs, got the one I wanted (we'd seen in on Saturday night). In process of going to check out, talked myself OUT of the perfume! Small victory on my quest to live more consciously of what I have and what I need.
Ordinary --
came home, fixed dinner
Extraordinary --
First Jr. League meeting tonight with my color group (go Purple!) I think I'm going to enjoy it --it's a way for me to get involved with something that is NOT directly related to my job. I love the concepts that the group stands for and see how it can help me grow as a person. We meet again next Monday to go over more details for the Provisional year -- I have no doubt that it will give me great experiences.
Ordinary --
Bed now
Extraordinary --
My life *smiles*
Ordinary --
got up, went to work, had meeting.
Extraordinary --
after work went to TJ Maxx to buy a new rug for the kitchen that I'd talked myself into buying. Drooled over pocketbooks (especially a red Dooney bag) for like 15 minutes. Picked up a bottle of perfume I'd been wanting. Went to rugs, got the one I wanted (we'd seen in on Saturday night). In process of going to check out, talked myself OUT of the perfume! Small victory on my quest to live more consciously of what I have and what I need.
Ordinary --
came home, fixed dinner
Extraordinary --
First Jr. League meeting tonight with my color group (go Purple!) I think I'm going to enjoy it --it's a way for me to get involved with something that is NOT directly related to my job. I love the concepts that the group stands for and see how it can help me grow as a person. We meet again next Monday to go over more details for the Provisional year -- I have no doubt that it will give me great experiences.
Ordinary --
Bed now
Extraordinary --
My life *smiles*
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